I speak because thats the only thing I know how to, I write because thats what I have
Today you took me back to a place I was glad I left. To a time where my footing wasnt sure and my ground was sinking.
Your words reminded me of a quick sand that almost swallowed me up before I grabbed onto my anchor.
I was happy to find my ballast,
A rock that won’t let me fall.
A point so high I was in cloud nine,
To live my dream as reality.
Yet you took that away from me, drowning me in a well of insecurities,
Why would this ghost step out of your mouth to haunt me?
Why would an angel break my heart?
Shattering to pieces what you built.
Opening closed wounds
Leaving me to bleed your words of love and comfort
Loosing the battle with your thunderous silence.
I want to go back to my safe haven
To where you hold me whole and envelop me in the security of your arms.
Don’t let me drown sweet angel.
My tears are gold
Hot and molten.
They are stirred behind
tired eyes and feathered lashes
By the tumultuous feelings of
This unending dryness
Caused by the drought within.
How can this desert go on forever.
Will my golden tears cool into bars?
Will I mold daggers from them?
Will I ever find my oasis,
My mock ocean of relief ?
And will the next tide bring the storm!
Or will it be calmed?
Brooding seems to be the order of the day
I am lost for words and don’t know what to say
I wish you would stay
Even if it’s just so we could play.
When the night comes and I lay
All I can do is pray
For another way
to throw away
The opinions that you have of me that won’t sway
Though I know your response is nay
I try not to keep at bay
The emotions that would relay
To you that I am Okay.
Distance is 9765 kilometers or 6068 miles or 5273 nautical miles
You wound me,
Gently and quietly but surely.
You scrape and scratch
Peels and flakes of scabs
Old wounds opened
New ones inflicted.
A warm hot cloth,
Ointment and balm,
Plaster and a kiss.
You nurse me and patch me up.
Sharp words! I cut you
Slashing through your armor to pierce your heart.
Puddle of shock and pain,
Words I can’t take back
I need a moment
Arteries heal, veins reconnect me to you
I need a moment.
You breathe me in and hide me in your beating heart.
This is worth it
I fought for this and will hold on.
We start over
laughter and joy
Happiness and fun
Broken but whole
Why were we broken?
Not seeing or gaging reactions we blow out of proportion what could have been healed with a simple smile or laugh or joke
Yet we wound because we cannot feel or see,
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