Ldr Musings

I love you

I kiss air…

Being in a long distance relationship isn’t easy. And we have days like this where you just wish your dreams were your reality.

Happy weekend guys!!! 😍😘😘😘😘.

Why would an angel break my heart?

Today you took me back to a place I was glad I left. To a time where my footing wasnt sure and my ground was sinking.

Your words reminded me of a quick sand that almost swallowed me up before I grabbed onto my anchor.

I was happy to find my ballast,

A rock that won’t let me fall.

A point so high I was in cloud nine,

To live my dream as reality.

Yet you took that away from me, drowning me in a well of insecurities,

Why would this ghost step out of your mouth to haunt me?

Why would an angel break my heart?

Shattering to pieces what you built.

Opening closed wounds 

Leaving me to bleed your words of love and comfort

Loosing the battle with your thunderous silence.

I want to go back to my safe haven

To where you hold me whole and envelop me in the security of your arms.

Don’t let me drown sweet angel.

My Saturday post.

Had this up on Instagram @shulaices

Golden Tears

My tears are gold

Hot and molten.

They are stirred behind 

tired eyes and feathered lashes

By the tumultuous feelings of 

Desperation,love,hurt,emptiness

This unending dryness 

Caused by the drought within.

How can this desert go on forever.

Will my golden tears cool into bars? 

Will I mold daggers from them?

Will I ever find my oasis,

My mock ocean of relief ?

And will the next tide bring the storm!

 Or will it be calmed?

The Thought.

Brooding seems to be the order of the day

I am lost for words and don’t know what to say

I wish you would stay

Even if it’s just so we could play.

When the night comes and I lay

All I can do is pray

For another way 

 to throw away

The opinions that you have of me that won’t sway

Though I know your response is nay

I try not to keep at bay

The emotions that would relay

To you that I am Okay.

The problem with distance.

http://www.timeanddate.com/worldclock/distanceresult.html?p1=742&p2=158

Distance is 9765 kilometers or 6068 miles or 5273 nautical miles

You wound me,

Gently and quietly but surely.

You scrape and scratch

Peels and flakes of scabs

Old wounds opened

New ones inflicted.

 

A warm hot cloth,

Ointment and balm,

Plaster and a kiss.

You nurse me and patch me up.

 

Sharp words! I cut you

Slashing through your armor to pierce your heart.

Bleeding love.

Puddle of shock and pain,

Bleeding love.

Words I can’t take back

I’m sorry…

 

I need a  moment

Arteries heal, veins reconnect  me to you

I need a moment.

You breathe me in and hide me in your beating heart.

This is worth it

I fought for this and will hold on. 

 

Forgiveness

 

We start over

laughter and joy

Happiness and fun

Broken but whole

 

Why were we broken?

Not seeing or gaging reactions we blow out of proportion what could have been healed with a simple smile or laugh or joke

 

Yet we wound because we cannot feel or see,

We wound.

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