Eyes wide shut is the feeling I have.
I blink several times b’cos my vision is blurred,
I take a second look to find you still standing there.
How can this be?
What sorcery’s this?
This must be a trick,
For my mind knows the truth my eyes won’t tell and the lies my heart yearns to believe.
You see, it’s the way
the image I see tends to sway lightly and you seem surreal with the ray of the sun piercing the window screen.
Come what may,
It’s a game you play,
Ripping the control I have you toy with the emotions I try to keep at bay.
I may be giddy and feeling gay,
But it must come to an end this foreplay,
Because its nothing but a fantasy
A mirage of my desires
It’s not a dream for I am wide awake.
Happy Sunday and welcome to the new week. It’s technically still the first seven days in September and already Monday for me.
It’s already the 5th here and I am already torn about work. Excited and somewhat dreading it. I am sort of restless (that’s stating it mildly, ask my husband lol).
Everyone who knows me knows I am in need of constant stimulation and ways to keep entertained or just generally to stop my mind from wandering or me from day dreaming.
This brings us back to work! I am a builder. I work construction(in a supervisory and Consulting capacity) as a boss lol.
I get excited going to site and being part of the bevy of activity but it is short lived because after a while it seems like just boring routine to me.
The problem with the office is that I have to sit still for long periods and behave myself and not move or fidget. Therein lies the issue. At this stage I want to blog or read or write or just plain move!! Even if it’s just a little bit (who I’m I kidding?! I want to move a whole lot lol!).
I enjoy conversing with people that I like (lol who doesn’t?) I love books and generally entertainment. I like the outdoors in doses. And believe me I enjoy watching a building go up. You know, from concept to completion. it’s an amazing feeling.
But sometimes I end up wandering if I chose the wrong career and studied the wrong thing?
Did I miss it somewhere? Or is it still going to make sense?
Anyway I am definitely in for a short night. It’s already 1:10am.
Thank you blogosphere for letting me rant and think it out.
Have an amazing week ahead!!! 😎😎😎😘
So last week the family and I went to the zoo. I was really excited because my zoo trips are quite few and happened a long time ago.
I was also really excited because we were taking my sister’s 3 year old and her 11 month old twins and I was looking forward to having them enjoy the out doors and the general experience.
Obviously the twins are least likely to have as much fun as the 3 year old.
But surprisingly they had a great time enjoying the fresh air and the activity around them. So that was amazing.
Unfortunately the zoo was not as impressive as I had hoped. I saw snakes I think pythons. I saw horses (rolls eyes), I saw goats ( common! These roam the streets here) I saw two not very healthy looking camels even though I was told they were really young in reference to their size.
I saw buffalos, I saw various species of monkeys and two baboons.
I saw two turtles or is it tortoise . What’s the difference? Anyway they were really big. A male and a female. I can’t remember if one was 200 or 80 years old. I found out the males grow way bigger than the females. And some really curious Nigerians decided to sit and climb on the bigger of the turtles just because they were told about how strong it’s shell is. And I am like really?
Don’t get me wrong I was intrigued but come on!!! Riding a turtles back? Seriously!
I saw crocodiles and their baby. Or was it an alligator? Well there where also rabbits, ostrich, peacock,guinea fowl etc.
Nothing wild lifey though or ferocious. So a little disappointed again.
Anyway all in all it was a good day and I had fun.
Here are some pictures
Crocodile/alligator not sure 😁
There are more interesting pictures but my network won’t let me upload them lol.
So tell me about your local zoo.
What has been the most interesting and shocking thing about it.
😁 I look forward to your reply.
My tears are gold
Hot and molten.
They are stirred behind
tired eyes and feathered lashes
By the tumultuous feelings of
This unending dryness
Caused by the drought within.
How can this desert go on forever.
Will my golden tears cool into bars?
Will I mold daggers from them?
Will I ever find my oasis,
My mock ocean of relief ?
And will the next tide bring the storm!
Or will it be calmed?
Brooding seems to be the order of the day
I am lost for words and don’t know what to say
I wish you would stay
Even if it’s just so we could play.
When the night comes and I lay
All I can do is pray
For another way
to throw away
The opinions that you have of me that won’t sway
Though I know your response is nay
I try not to keep at bay
The emotions that would relay
To you that I am Okay.
Today I have decided to use gifs and pictures to express myself. Some are funny(well most are) but they explain alot about Ldr and how its feels most of the time. Even in the good times.
When your in it, it aint too funny.
Hope you enjoy and let me know your Ldr experience. It will mean alot to me. Thank you. 😔😢😢😢😢😢😞😊😊.
sometimes it feels this way when it seems its all falling around my ears and his. ‘we can fix this!’
Yes I know another theme (yet again!) bear with me. Going through that phase.
I pray your December is the best so far and that YOU find joy and peace in this month. AMEN.