(would like to point out that this piece and ”goodbye finally” are not from a real break up, relationship wise, but, i was inspired. A series of events led to my writing these. I also had other things and people in my life i needed to say goodbye to and was hoping others felt the same way.)I got caught up in the idea of us, that i lost me.
I gave into the comfort you offered,
the familiarity you represent(ed) that i dreaded change.
You embodied all that i had come to know, and my memory’s full of you.
So you became like an old couch,wrinkled, threadbare and musty.
yet i kept you around.
you became a permanent fixture i wasn’t ready to be rid of.
i treated you with care so you wouldn’t be ruined.
I gave you attention and time,
I nurtured, and i pampered to show you i cared.
But you see,
I was losing myself, loosing my identity.
I couldn’t remember a time we weren’t together.
A time when i was just me and content in knowing that.
A time where i took chances and opened myself up to new things.
Where i gave others a chance.
I’ve shed too many tears to last me a life time,
Suffered heart ache and now
”my hearts crippled by the vein i keep on closing”….
I’ve bled enough for you.
I know i said i’d
cry a thousand rivers,
will love you always
But you know what? I’m drowning and my hearts becoming too numb.
Love’s meant to heal, but all i feel is bruised and wounded.
It’s meant to be a work of art,
and I almost believed I had become a connoisseur, given the best to appraise,
but all i see now is a bleeding canvas.
It’s not a
picture of a thousand sunsets
bed of roses
is past wilting, its made up of thorns.
I thought we made good music but all i hear is a broken record.
I’ve finally come out of my stupor,
we were always meant to say goodbye.
Everyone thought we were perfect,
but honey, perfects not enough to make us survive.
i guess this is me not trying to hurt you, but doing so all the same.
it pains me to see you this way and knowing i caused it.
But better now than later. Now we get out with scars only.
Hush!!!, don’t say a word,
don’t try to change my mind, you deserve better…
and i definitely deserve the best.
So, am already gone,
this is me moving on.